Showing posts with label Disabilities. Show all posts
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Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Addie's Eyes by Tim Landry; A Historical Fantasy About Disabilities, Dreams, and Misfits

 

Addie's Eyes by Tim Landry; A Historical Fantasy About Disabilities, Dreams, and Misfits 

By Julie Sara Porter 

Bookworm Reviews

Spoilers: Addie's Eyes by Tim Landry is a wholesome enchanting Historical Fantasy which combines early 20th century entertainment, including sideshow attractions and dream worlds. It's also a compelling story about two misfits who are united against a real world that doesn't understand them and a fantasy world of their own imagination. It is old fashioned in settings, theme, and style but that is what makes the book timeless the way many youthful fantasies like Alice in Wonderland and The Wizard of OZ are.

In 1884 Liverpool, Addie Alexander is a blind girl who works and lives at her father, Ezra’s, Ruby Palace Theater.  The latest entertainer is Fedor Jeftichew, AKA Jo Jo The Dog Face Boy, a sideshow performer with hypertrichosis, an abnormal amount of hair growth on his body. Rachel, Addie's teacher, is leaving for another job, so she feels lonely. She befriends Fedor who tells the blind girl that he is just an assistant who looks after the Dog Faced Boy. The two develop a close friendship that threatens the act when her father and his manager catch them. Fedor leaves for another performance, Addie follows after him, and  is knocked into a coma. While she is in her coma, she dreams of a fantasy kingdom where she can see and travel to different worlds based on hers and Fedor’s imagination.

The book has two distinct parts, the first is a more straightforward Historical Fiction. The second detailing Addie's dream is a Fantasy. These two distinct parts tell a unique story that covers both tones admirably.

The first half is genuinely touching but also has a savage bite. The bite is caused by the focus on people with disabilities and physical abnormalities, some of which are displayed for others amusement. This was an actual source of entertainment which is now seen as exploitative and dehumanizing. 

I highly recommend the book, Very Special People: The Struggles, Loves, and Triumphs of Human Oddities by Frederick Drimmer for more information on sideshows and their entertainers. In fact, Fedor/JoJo is a fictionalized version of a real life performer of the same name. This amalgam of putting a real-life sideshow entertainer in this fictional setting shows the faint line between fantasy and reality that is so prevalent throughout the book. 

The most heartfelt chapters focus on the relationship between Addie and Fedor. Fedor is raised to expose his differences to a thirsty, drawing, and often fickle crowd. He can’t hide who he is so he has to play a part. He is used to being stared at, so he turns it into an opportunity. He is highly intelligent, creative, and adaptable. He suggests different things to add to the act, like acrobatics or recitations to draw bigger crowds and provide more money for himself and his manager/guardian, Charlie.

Addie’s blindness also makes her an oddity as well. Unlike Fedor, she is trained to hide. She occasionally greets visitors but mostly she works behind the scenes at the theater, gathering props, moving the curtain, and running errands for her father and the performers. She usually has to stay in the theater with minimal contact except for Ezra, Rachel, and Patrick, a stagehand.

 It’s no wonder that she’s so distraught when Rachel announces her impending departure. She didn’t just lose a teacher, she lost a mentor, mother figure, and one of her few contacts with the outside world. It’s also understandable why Addie bonds with Fedor. He is one of the entertainers, but he actually takes the time to talk to her and treat her like a real person and not part of the faceless help.

Like Fedor, Addie too shows an imaginative and creative spirit. In her private areas backstage, she treats the abandoned props like toys and makes up stories about them. This helps facilitate Fedor’s creativity. Fedor and Addie build a true friendship through their dual imaginations. To the rest of society they are misfits and outsiders, so their bond is that of two kindred spirits united because of a world that fears or shelters them.

Fedor weaves tales about being a prince of a land called Zymia. Addie tells her own imaginary tales. As lonely children often do, they are connected through their fantastic stories. As long as they are in their imagination, they can be brave, attractive, heroic, the people that they feel they are not. They create a world where Fedor doesn’t have to pretend to be a separate person from Jojo and Addie can go outside and see the environment that she pictures in her head. The fantasy that they create becomes real for Addie after their separation and her coma. 

The fantasy aspects are similar to many of the similar stories from the 19th century. Addie comes to the world with weird characters who see her as some kind of hero and she is sent on a quest for a specific goal. In this case to find Fedor, who is their missing prince just like in his stories. It gives one the overall impression that this experience is intentionally based on those stories because they were ones that Addie told herself, that Rachel read or encouraged her to read, or that she and Fedor shared. 

Many of the lands and characters that Addie sees are products of a child’s imagination and create a charming world that one would definitely want to escape into if given the chance. She befriends a terrapin (not a turtle as he reminds us), named Brother. There is also a tall lean figure made up of various blocks called Toybox. They accompany Addie on her journey. She also sees mysterious shadowy figures that could either help or harm her. 

The different lands are made of themes like candy, toys, musical instruments, and others that please the senses. In a way, they are like those AI clips which show variations of the same idea like a bedroom in various weird styles decorated with wildlife, oceans, or Outer Space.

For  Addie who has been living in a world of darkness and had to guess through her senses and imaginations how things looked, it is a transformative experience. That’s probably part of why this dreamscape is described so bizarre and outlandish. The Readers are visualizing it through the perspective of someone who can see for the first time and is aware how beautiful, strange, and off putting the world around her can be. Also why the thought of darkness moving across the land would be so traumatic to her. It’s a dream world that relies on the reality of the dreamer. 

In fact, unlike most versions of this trope, the Reader is made aware that this is definitely a dream. While Addie is in this coma going on her imaginative journey, we are provided chapters from the points of view of Ezra and Rachel as they watch over her and Fedor as he leaves Charlie to returns to the Ruby Palace. It's an interesting and original touch to this type of story, though it somewhat drags in parts. 

Sometimes, Readers like the fantasy of escapism and want to believe that at least temporarily the protagonist is there and that this is a real experience.  We don’t always want to be reminded that it isn’t. We get the idea when we read about things that are actually composites of real world objects and characters. Or that a meaningless conversation in reality takes precedence in the dream. Or hey the dream provides a solution to a problem or a lesson to be learned.

Though, as with many of these stories there are a couple of later revelations that blur the dream world and the real world. That makes these real world views even more arbitrary and questionable. But that is a minor issue in a book that combines History and Fantasy to tell a story that any outsider or misfit can relate to or understand.









Saturday, September 3, 2022

New Book Alert: SexyQuad Chronicles: The Life and Times of A Salacious Quadriplegic by Luke Stewart; Funny Salacious Autobiography About Disability, Sex, Love, and Regret




New Book Alert: SexyQuad Chronicles: The Life and Times of A Salacious Quadriplegic by Luke Stewart; Funny Salacious Autobiography About Disability, Sex, Love, and Regret

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews


Warning: This review speaks openly and frankly about sexuality.

Read at your own discretion.


When it comes to autobiographies about disabilities, they often fall in two categories. The first is meant to be inspirational. The author even was born with disability or acquires one. They struggle with daily activities, other's taunts, and their own limitations. They also have a big goal like climbing Mt. Everest, starting their own business, publishing their scientific theories and winning the Nobel, or even just inspiring other people with their stories. The point of these type of books are meant to move people and to marvel about how the protagonist triumphed over adversity. "If they can do it, then I can do it too," is what they might think.

The second type is less inspirational and more realistic. They often focus on the day to day struggles and the simple pleasures. The tone is less uplifting and can be sardonic, honest, and sometimes even funny. The goals when they are present can be minor but no less important. Sometimes it involves getting into a relationship, graduating college, or simply just getting through a day without struggling. In some ways those too can be inspirational. "Life can be difficult, but it can be good too," is what a Reader might think.


Luke Stewart's autobiography, SexyQuad Chronicles The Life and Times of A Salacious Quadriplegic is the second type of book. It involves Stewart, who became quadriplegic after a vehicular accident. While he goes through the tasks of living and working alongside caregivers, going to college, and finding work. He had one specific goal in mind. The same goal that many men have, disabled or not: to have plenty of sex. The book isn't just about Stewart's disabilities. It's a sharp funny book about his relationships with women, his frequent sex life, and the lessons that he learned along the way.


In 1989, while in high school, Stewart returned from a burger diner when he and a friend got involved in in a car accident. The accident left Stewart quadriplegic. Retaining the sharp sardonic humor in describing one of the biggest turning points of his life, Stewart reported apropos of nothing that he never finished eating his burger. In 2015, he finally returned to the diner and found "the food wasn't that great."


While Stewart describes some very traumatic moments, he does so in a realistic way that is matter of fact. He describes suffering paralysis in all four limbs and a broken neck. He also wrote about his various hospital stays and surgeries many of which caused more pain and discomfort. 

He also describes the impact that the accident had on his sexual organs. Being an at the time teenage boy, he was concerned about his constant erecetions and what they ahem revealed. "My little guy is a grower not a shower and of average size," Stewart said.


Sex is a continuous theme in this book. Stewart describes his many love affairs and relationships in a way that is very upfront and sordid but not misogynistic or abusive. Stewart was involved with many women and makes no secret about that. 

He writes that he was aware of the difficulties of maintaining a relationship with someone in his condition. He had limited physical mobility and required assistance for daily activities. The women that he was with could inundate him with questions or overcompensate by doing too much for him, acting more like caregivers than lovers. Of course, many observers could possibly make the pair uncomfortable with stares and condescending admiration. "I get it, I'm different," Stewart said sarcastically.


As with many straight guys, when Stewart began the dating scene, he wasn't concerned about having long term relationships as he was concerned about getting some. He thought of something to say that would ease concerns as well as serve as a pick up line for any prospects. He explained that he could feel his whole body but he couldn''t move much. When the potential date asks whether he can feel anything, Stewart then said that "(He) was incomplete, but felt touch. The pleasure is wonderful but the pain unbearable." Then he added, that he's lucky he can still has sex. 

Stewart candidly admits that he was a player but he rationaled, "In my shoes-that somebody has to put on for me- you do what you have to do. People could think what they liked but I had needs and tried to fill them as much as possible."


Stewart's relationships were exercises in differing personalities, disagreements, issues with commitment, and their insecurities and his own ego. One relationship ended because she "wanted to be wanted" and fell in love with a woman. Another couldn't balance her emotional needs with his physical ones. A married woman returned to her husband.

He met two different women on Craigslist. The sexual chemistry fizzled out on one before she decided that they should just remain friends. He hooked up with another even though he didn't "fancy her." 


By far the two most complicated troubling relationships cost Stewart a lot more than the loss of a sexual good time or potential girlfriend. As an instructor in a Psychology for Disability course, he had an affair with a student. Despite the concerns about violating campus rules, the affair ended quickly and he emerged unscathed for now.

 Unfortunately, the ramifications were felt later after he met another woman and told her about his former lovers including the student. After they broke up, she reported his student affair to the campus costing him his job.


 Each bad relationship carried with it a lesson to be learned and a means for Stewart to understand how he felt about other people and himself. After he lost his job, Stewart evaluated his past behavior. What kept him from being a completely reprehensible person was that he regretted that he was with so many women and quickly discarded them. That he was as much to blame for the end of the relationships as they were.

That "can feel pleasure" line was just that. A line. In thinking that he was doing something courageous by living for just sex and proving that he could have sex despite his disability, he was hurting many including himself. After this understanding, Stewart vowed to become a better person considering love and emotion as well as sexual chemistry. 


SexyQuad Chronicles is a salacious, frank, funny, and very honest book that shows that the greatest triumph that a disabled person, that any person, could make is to be truly honest with themselves. Then they could grow as someone who could be a better friend, lover, and person.