Dissolved (Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy Book 2) by Anna Madorsky; Semi-Return to Normalcy-Maybe

Dissolved (Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy Book 2) by Anna Madorsky; Semi-Return to Normalcy-Maybe

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews

This review is also on Reedsy Discovery.

Spoilers: Since this review is for the second volume in a trilogy, I advise you to read my review for the first volume, Gutted and be forewarned that this review will contain MAJOR SPOILERS!!

 In Gutted, the first volume of Anna Madorsky’s Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy, Elliot, a woman troubled by PTSD and frequent insomnia, meets Jason, a highly intelligent, temperamental stranger who shares many of her philosophical Nihilistic thoughts. The two become lovers and kindred spirits before Jason reveals that in moments of fury, he killed people in the past and still has the urge to kill again. Elliot is at first frightened but then is drawn to his aggressive energy and open contempt for people around them. They marry and she becomes complicit and eventually partners with him when he goes in for his latest kill: a man who brutally kidnapped, raped, and murdered her friend Abbie. Elliot helps Jason cover up the crime but their relationship has been significantly altered so she decides to take a break from their marriage. She won’t notify anyone but she can’t be with Jason right now. She leaves him to find a different life for herself.

Dissolved, the second volume is mostly about her time alone. If Gutted was a journey of Elliot discovering the dark side within herself and Jason and taking those dark sides to frightening levels, then Dissolved is about the opposite. It involves Elliot trying desperately to return to normalcy or perhaps embracing it for the first time.

To maintain distance between herself and Jason, Elliot offers to house-sit for Oluchi, friend of a friend in Portland. In this new location, she makes new friends and becomes a different person. Unfortunately, she can’t stay away from Jason for too long and the two reunite. Their reunion brings back their actions and unresolved conflicts and Elliot has to either leave Jason to his own devices or return to their “Bonnie-and-Clyde” escapades.

In the previous book, Elliot lived in a cloak of darkness. She was still scarred with the traumas of her past and her mind was fogged from sleepless nights and damaging memories. She became easily susceptible to Jason’s manipulations, intellectual rhetoric, and pressing dark souled charisma. 

She thought that she found someone who shared her pessimistic views of the world until he revealed that he had been purposely stalking her. What he needed was a partner to share and facilitate these dark urges to commit murder. She was an outsider to everyone but to Jason and began to embrace a complete isolation from the world and a detachment to its laws and standards.

Dissolved is about the same woman trying her damned best to join that world that she once felt isolated from. Elliot invigorates her friendships by becoming more involved in their issues. In the previous book, she displayed some empathy for a coworker having trouble with her aging mother, and a couple of friends that are having marital problems. Most prominently, her concern for Abbie is what motivates her and Jason's rage and desire for murder. But her interactions with them conveyed world weary detachment as though she viewed them through thick glass, observing and feeling but up to a point.

However, she blossoms in Portland. She bonds with Oluchi enough to give her some information about her marriage (though not all of it). An elderly neighbor, Josephine treats her like a surrogate daughter. Rav and Yesenia, a fighting married couple, are put into her confidence.

Rav and Yesenia’s subplot proves an interesting contrast to Elliot and Jason. Rav and Yesenia's fights are loud, emotional, and almost darkly comic like a realistic sitcom with a hard edge. In other words, they are the type of couple that Elliot and Jason tried to avoid becoming. Rav and Yesenia's marriage conflicts are all outward while Elliot's and Jason's are inward.

Also Rav proves to be a contrast to Elliot herself especially when Jason returns. Just as Elliot sees Jason as a means to share her trauma and her grief, Rav sees them as a means to reflect his own aggressions and irritations. He is drawn to their shadow presence as much as Elliot had been to Jason. Looking at it now from the outside, she recognizes the harm and toxicity to the relationship but also is aware of her own longing for Jason's presence once more even as she tries to reject him.

Elliot also has a potential second love interest in Caspian, a bookseller. It isn't quite a romance but it is a deep respectful friendship. Caspian is an alternative to Jason. Like Jason he is highly intelligent, speaks of philosophical, metaphysical, and literary concepts, and causes Elliot to look inward. However he does so in a more positive way that seeks to better her not pull her down to a lower level as Jason does.

Normally, I don't care for love triangles but this is one that actually kind of works because of what Jason and Caspian represent to Elliot. Jason opened up her outsider status and encouraged her to acknowledge her darker angrier side, the side that had been hurt, hates the world, and wants to pass that hurt along to someone else.

Caspian wants to encourage Elliot's softer, more empathetic side, the type that wants to be loved and surrounded by loving, understanding people. Elliot opens up to share her thoughts about poetry, literature, and finding creative means to express her emotions. Caspian gives her possibilities to see past that hurt and find a way to move on from it. He opens up the insider status and the desire to belong and be accepted

Another way that Elliot expresses the desire to belong is through her family. In the previous book, Elliot was abused by or estranged from her immediate family. She was left isolated without anyone close to her, no positive examples to learn from leaving her alone and vulnerable.

Now she learns that her father died and she makes an attempt to reconcile with her mother who lives in Australia with her younger brothers. Elliot recognizes her own wasted effort at a reunion when the woman turns her back on her daughter while justifying choosing her sons over her. 

Instead Elliot actually does discover a found family in her Aunt Ava, her father's sister. She runs a New Age shop, reads Tarot Cards, and gives Elliot maternal advice about love and relationships. She is the older feminine guide that Elliot needed all along. It's particularly intriguing that she finds this familial link while separated from Jason. Without Jason her circle has widened but with him, it was severely limited.

You will notice in my review that I don't refer to Elliot and Jason's romance much but refer to other characters. That's because Jason isn't in it as much as the others. In his frequent absence from the narrative, other characters take prominent roles in Elliot’s life. She seems to be doing alright without him. For a time.

When Jason returns, Elliot realizes how much she missed that intense passion between them and their unique relationship in a world of two. She also is more suspicious of him and receives non-answers when she asks if he killed anyone else since they have been apart. She wonders if her presence was able to satisfy his bloodlust or at least redirect it to people who they felt deserved to die like abusers and rapists.

She is torn between the man that proved to be a dangerous killer and the man that she feels understands her the most. Even though she worked very hard at improving herself since their separation, she still has traces of that sad, mentally scarred, traumatized young woman that Jason met. The more she tries to deny their connection, the harder that it is to resist him.

Gutted revealed that Elliot was figuratively cut open when Jason explored her vulnerabilities. Dissolved reveals the tug of war between Elliot's personas: law or lawlessness, inner peace or outward violence, belonging or isolation, love or loneliness, society or outsider, burying her painful past or letting it consume her, being a decent person helping others or a violent criminal creating someone else's pain. Eventually, one or the other persona is going to have to dissolve, leaving only one. 

 

A Collection of Tiny Stories: Diminutive Tales From The Tips of My Imagination by C.K. Sobey; The School of Optimal Futures by Annie Flint

 

A Collection of Tiny Stories: Diminutive Tales From The Tips of My Imagination by C.K. Sobey; The School of Optimal Futures by Annie Flint 

By Julie Sara Porter 

Bookworm Reviews 

 

A Collection of Tiny Stories: Diminutive Tales from The Tips of My Imagination by C.K. Sobey

This review is a summary. The entire review can be found on Reader Views.

Sometimes writers can say much with very few words. That's what C.K. Sobey demonstrates with the anthology A Collection of Tiny Stories: Diminutive Tales from The Tips of My Imagination. Sobey presents 24 short stories no longer than one or two pages or a few paragraphs to describe a conflict, a setting, a character, or a specific moment. 

A babysitter discovers dark secrets about her neighbor. A bookworm receives a personal message from their latest book. A woman receives a newspaper with a prophetic story. A woman writes to her husband during WWI. A little girl wants a new doll for her birthday. A janitor longs for a different path in life. An abusive man encounters a witch. Workers make the most of the dockyard night life. A woman finds an abandoned teddy bear and takes it home with her.

Sobey doesn't use many words. The words that are used capture those brief flickering moments which dare readers to read, visualize, and understand a brief point in time. They are descriptive, lyrical, visceral, and skillful in depicting a single lasting image within each story.

The School for Optimal Futures by Annie Flint

This review is a summary. The entire review can be found on LitPick.

The School for Optimal Futures by Annie Flint book is a YA dystopia science fiction novel that acknowledges the conflict between the domineering authority figures and the young courageous rebels but also comments on many of our current conflicts with technology, government overreach, and education.

 Ginger is sent to The School for Optimal Futures, an elite bizarre private school. The curriculum is strange. The faculty are very secretive and students disappear. Ginger and her new friends, Zoe, Matty, and Aiden discover a conspiracy between the school’s founder and the tech company that owns the school and the nearby town. 

The School for Optimal Futures gives a pleasant exterior but is questionable internally. It has a beautiful campus, interesting curriculum, welcoming students, supportive faculty, but it's all surface.

There is something performative and uncomfortable about the whole situation, like the school is playing the part of a welcoming empathetic place for misfits and outsiders but isn't really. Things like constant surveillance and.missing students and faculty members are highly suspicious plus a giant tech company has complete control over the school.

 The book’s plot is a savage commentary on surveillance, corporate control, and the manipulation of educational standards to serve the goals of the oligarchs and the world they strive to create. The school is written as a microcosm of what is already being done on a larger scale by large corporations who focus on gain and control rather than humanity and preservation.

The School for Optimal Futures calls to attention many of the real-life world problems but also offers ways in which they can be countered, challenged, changed, and maybe defeated.

 

Gutted (Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy Book 1) by Anna Madorsky; Troubling Relationship Turns Destructive and Toxic

 

Gutted (Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy Book 1) by Anna Madorsky; Troubling Relationship Turns Destructive and Toxic

By Julie Sara Porter 

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Spoilers: Even if the introduction of Anna Madorsky’s book, Gutted, the first book in her Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy, doesn’t outright spell out what happens to the central couple the first few chapters alone carry an initial feeling of unease that this couple is not going to be a happy one. This feeling only grows long before we learn about the violent history that haunts them in the past and the impulses that still rule their lives.

Elliot, a frequent insomniac, heads for a cafe in the rain in a desperate attempt to find something to soothe her. On the way there, she meets Jason, a mesmerizing stranger who asks probing and philosophical questions and understands the dark aspects luring inside her subconscious. The two become close and more intimate while Jason hints at some disturbing impulses and mannerisms.

 Finally, in a candid moment, Jason reveals his history of violence, darker urges and impulses which consume him, and that he still has those urges even now. Elliot is left with a moral quandary. Should she turn a blind eye to his behavior, help him no matter how far his urges take him, or leave him, inform the police, and regain her life?

The overall tone of this book is bleak. Both Elliot and Jason are disturbing characters caught in their own shadow natures and emotions particularly trauma, depression, anger, violence, hatred, and depersonalization. 

This is a couple that is practically destined to be a killer couple long before the first victim is identified and the body is laid out. Separately, they are miserable and insulated. Together, they are destructive towards others and themselves.

Their first encounter in hindsight is a lesson in subtle manipulation, control, and dominance. Elliot’s thought process is incredibly askew because of her insomnia and her early traumatic home life which causes her to withdraw into herself. She is very susceptible to Jason’s influence which he later revealed was among the reasons that he purposely sought her out.

Jason captivates her by echoing many of her own thoughts about the world around her. He offers his own Nihilistic views which she resonates with. She sees a partner in their mutual dark views of the world around them and who turns those thoughts into a distorted logic. If they have been hurt by a cruel and unfeeling world around them, can anyone blame them for seeing nothingness everywhere they go and thinking that life is completely pointless?

 If life is pointless, then there is no reason to honor laws, ethics, morals and other barriers. Jason rewords and reframes these views so Elliot thinks that she thought of them herself. She then thinks that Jason is a kindred spirit when all he is is a pathway to further isolation.

Elliot feels detached from everyone except for Jason. A chapter that illustrates this is when she and Jason have dinner with her close friends. Elliot’s friends’ marriage is happy. They are well adjusted with their house, careers, and dog. These are goals many aspire towards, but Elliot cannot help but think that it’s a phony surface. 

Elliot is shut out from achieving such a life, so she doesn’t bother to hope for them. Instead of wanting what she can’t have, she finds the flaws within and magnifies them until they turn into the whole picture. Instead of trying to move beyond her status, she remains detached, depersonalized, and immobile. Miserably unhappy but unable or unwilling to act upon it until Jason enters her orbit.

While Elliot simmers in her thoughts and unhappiness, Jason is the one who brings them to the surface. He is the agent of chaos that does the things that Elliot dreams of doing but is hampered by her own inertia. 

Jason reveals a dark past in which he was forced to respond to violence with violence. Instead of feeling remorse or justification, the violence became an obsession and fixation. It is an itch that he can't scratch so satisfies it by hurting others.

Jason likens his violent actions to an urge that when he sees someone that angers him, he needs to satiate that obsession with blood and murder. For someone who speaks so well about philosophy and metaphysical concepts, he cannot articulate his murderous impulses until Elliot rationalizes them.

 As he reframed her dark thoughts, she reframes his random acts and urges into a means of self-protection and defense. As Elliot is controlled by Jason, Jason is controlled by these urges. Elliot’s own inert thoughts are given movement by Jason and Jason’s acts of violence are given rationale by Elliot.

The violent acts occur in the final chapters and are almost cathartic after the build up provided by these two disturbed individuals. It is bloody, brutal, and purposely grotesque. For all of the depth in characterization that is given to the two lead characters, when we see them acting out their violent fantasies their mystique and control disappear.

 They no longer see each other as mutual lost souls drifting along in an uncaring world. They see partners and instigators in escalating the chaos and violence that contributed to that uncaring world. 

Intervention (The Galactic Milieu Series Book 1) by Julian May; How the Galactic Milieu Began

 

Intervention (The Galactic Milieu Series Book 1) by Julian May; How the Galactic Milieu Began

By Julie Sara Porter

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Spoilers: Upon rereading The Galactic Milieu Series by Julian May, I came to a discovery that I never knew for decades: the series is not a trilogy. When I purchased the series in the late 90’s, it was advertised on the covers as a trilogy. I read it in order as a trilogy. It has a beginning, middle, and end, with some intriguing exposition and back story, as a trilogy. Everything about it screamed, “Read me, I'm a trilogy!” Well, it turns out that I was wrong. The Galactic Milieu Series is actually a four book series. 

Well depending on where or when you read it, the series is either a four or five book series. The actual first volume, Intervention was published in 1987 in the UK as one volume and in the US as two volumes: Surveillance and Metaconcert. The subsequent books, Jack the Bodiless, Diamond Mask, and Magnificat published in 1991, 1994, and 1996 respectively were released as a trilogy separate from Intervention at the time. Intervention has subsequently been rereleased as one volume and renumbered to fit the series proper. 

Oh and to make things even more interesting, I just learned that Intervention links The Galactic Milieu Series to May's earlier series, The Saga of Pliocene Exile. Even more important, some Milieu characters, most notably Marc Remillard, serve double duty in both series making them one continuous shared universe, The May Literary Universe or MLU if you will. Julian May loved to make things difficult for her readers didn't she? But I digress.

The good news is that the intriguing exposition and backstory hold up as a decent gatekeeping introduction to the rest of the Galactic Milieu Series. Intervention gives us important information about the Remillard Family, the Galactic Milieu, the Atoning Unifex, and the introduction of metapsychic abilities, the sociopolitical intergalactic circumstances that will affect the world at large and the Remillard's personal struggles and conflicts which will result in the creation of Fury, the metapsychic creature who will make the family’s lives miserable in the next three books.

The book begins when narrator Rogatien “Rogi” is a tween with his twin brother, Donatien “Don,” in the 1940’s and ends in the late 90’s when intergalactic intervention occurs. It is a fascinating experience to read this book after the trilogy just to see how concepts like psychic abilities are introduced. 

In the subsequent books, metapsychics are so well known that those abilities are considered commonplace. It's interesting to see a point when they are so new that it scares Rogi the first time that he hears someone's thoughts. He, like anyone else who would discover mental telepathy, thinks that he imagined it or he's going crazy. 

Throughout this book, we see metapsychic abilities evolve from a pseudoscience, to a theory, to something few people have, to a recognized legitimate phenomena, to something openly studied and practiced, to something feared and used to dehumanize others, to something that gives a huge advantage for those who have it, to becoming a central facet in some lives. The trajectory has some historical and scientific parallels in the real world. 

I keep forgetting to mention in these books there are five types of metapsychic abilities. There is creativity which creates illusions, change shapes, manipulate energy, and assemble matter into new forms, coercion which is mind control and overwhelming mental awareness and creating mental defenses, psychokinesis which is telekinesis, farsensing which is communicating with others mentally and sensing remotely, and redaction which is psychic healing and mind reading. In previous books, some excel in one specific ability like Dorothea with redaction and Rogi with creativity while others notably Jon can practice all five.

 This book emphasizes those different types and how they can be used and misused. Some use their specific abilities to help others like Denis who uses farsensing to create a bridge of understanding between those who are metapsychic and those who aren't. Then we see those like Denis’s brother Victor who uses coercion to commit criminal violent activity. It shows the different talents that one can specialize in and what means they use them for.

The book also introduces us to the conflicts found within the Remillard Family. Fury has yet to be formed but we see the toxic environment in which such a being would be mentally created and thrive inside a powerful subconscious. Rogi and Don’s struggles begin early. As Rogi studies his abilities and comes to terms with his sterility, Don falls into alcoholism, early marriage and fatherhood, and philandering. Rogi who is in love with Sunny, the woman who married Don, becomes the de facto father figure in their lives alienating Don further.

 Rogi eventually bonds with Denis who becomes a favorite nephew to him. Rogi and Denis’s mentor protege relationship is one of the highlights of this volume. He guides him in testing his metapsychic powers foreshadowing Denis’ eventual status as Remillard Family Head and prominent leader in metaphysics study and intergalactic relations. This also retroactively makes the decline of their relationship in the remaining books much more poignant knowing how close they once were.

The Remillards have several generations of family rivalries and this book shows the origins with Rogi and Don, then with Denis and Victor. While Don is simply a failure that exists for hedonistic pleasures, Victor is much more cunning and ruthless. He sees metapsychic powers as a means of superiority over people who don't have them.

As previously mentioned, Victor uses coercion in violent and destructive ways such as assaulting women, accessing accounts and government secrets, and brokering an alliance with organized crime leader, Kierian O’Connor while manipulating O’Connor’s daughter. In this reality, the Cold War is still relevant into the late 90’s and Victor manipulates various political sides to his advantage.

Later such things as intergalactic intervention, creating the Galactic Milieu, and interstellar travel will do their part in making these Earth struggles between warring nations and the law and lawless seem minor in comparison. But here they are in this book, present and unaware that the time when Earth's residents believed that they were alone in the universe and can treat the planet as horribly as they want will soon be at an end. Victor, like many, is all about his personal gain until forces greater than himself render them null and void.

As far as the aliens are concerned, mostly they interact with each other in space, observe Earthling activity, and debate whether this planet deserves Intervention and an invitation to join the Milieu (No spoiler alert: obviously we know they will extend the offer and Earth will accept otherwise the previous books would never have happened). Mostly they just summarize what has happened so far.

However one alien character fascinates: The Atoning Unifex AKA Rogi’s Family Ghost. The Unifex has been helping Rogi since he was young to discover his powers, predict his future, help him face conflicts, and provide the extra strength for self-defense. There were hints in the next three books of what exactly the Unifex and what their motive is for helping Rogi without confirming or denying the truth. One line in this book reveals the truth behind this character’s identity and why they are connected to Rogi.

Readers could skip Intervention and begin with Jack The Bodiless as I did. The exposition is revealed in an easy way to follow without getting lost and the three books could be seen as occurring en media res. It wouldn't have changed anything and there are advantages in reading the three without it like gaining immediacy with the characters and being left surprised at the twists and revelations.

However, Intervention does include some interesting backstories and take us to the beginning of Rogi and The Remillard Family. In turn it makes the remaining series more meaningful and powerful.

Now maybe onwards to The Saga of The Pliocene Exile to get the full story.

The Wedding Shroud (A Tale of Ancient Rome) by Elizabeth Storrs; This Woman's Roads Lead From Rome to Etruria

 

The Wedding Shroud (A Tale of Ancient Rome) by Elizabeth Storrs; This Woman's Roads Lead From Rome to Etruria 

By Julie Sara Porter 

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Spoilers: I admit that as much as I am fascinated by Greco-Roman Mythology and am a huge History and Historical Fiction fan, I actually don't know a lot about Etruscans. I knew that they originated in Etruria and were the early settlers of what would become Rome. They were led by a city-state system. 

They obtained wealth and power through mineral resources, agriculture, and maritime trade with Greece and Carthage. They influenced much of Roman culture. They went into decline after the Etruscan kings were overthrown, conquered by Rome, and the Etruscans absorbed into the Roman Republic/Empire with their culture and language merging with Rome’s. 

Most of the time history treats the Etruscans as a footnote between the fall of Ancient Greece and the rise of Rome. However they were a people with a distinct history and culture. The Etruscans left their own mark in history and The Historical Fiction novel, The Wedding Shroud (A Tale of Ancient Rome) by Elizabeth Storrs shows that.

In 406, Caecilia, a young Roman patrician/plebian woman, is arranged to marry Val Mastarna, an Etruscan nobleman as part of a treaty. At first she is unhappy and determined to remain true to her Roman ideals but slowly adjusts and feels accepted in this new world. 

She even comes to care about Masterna, his adopted son, Tarchon, her handmaid/friend Cytheris, and another friend, courtesan Erene. She is caught between the world that she came from and the one in which she loves.

This book is strong in setting and character. The Etruscan setting including time and place is awash with details. It uses the Historical Fiction trope of a newcomer from one society seeing another for the first time and contrasting the societies. It's predictable but in this case works very well.

Caecillia was born and raised in a Roman society where everyone knew their place and position. Caecillia comes from a plebian, lower class, father and patrician, ruling aristocratic mother which Roman society considers her half-caste. While moving from one status to another is possible, there are limitations to what a plebian or their children can be permitted to achieve.

Because of this outsider status, Caecillia’s father raised her beyond the expectations of a proper Roman girl. Instead of just learning basic reading, managing the household, and domestic home care. He raised her to discuss politics, philosophy, leadership, and to read dense literature. What a boy of her status would learn. She becomes quite an intelligent young woman but has nowhere to use it.

After her father dies, Caecillia loses the only encouragement that she has. In the home of her aunt and uncle is where she truly learns that her status as a Roman woman is nonexistent. She is told to wear pale colored linens, to practice homecare, and learns that her authority and status only ends within the household. 

She is to remain housebound while any future Roman husband would fight in battles, head city-states, and manage multiple lands. They can participate in ritualistic games and gatherings while she cannot even look upon them. Her upbringing from her aunt and uncle is rigid, conservative, and uncompromising. After a long time, she is conditioned to accept it.

The education that Caecillia’s father gave her disappears because of her lack of use for it, though it does give her a questioning personality and a strong will. After many years, Caecilia is conditioned to know and accept her place. The potential that she might have had disappears within the required Roman gender roles.

Caecilia is isolated by her stern parental figures only to have her cousin, Marcus, and a family friend, Drusius to confide in. If not for a strange change in circumstances, Caecilia might have remained an upper class desperate Roman housewife. Instead, she arranged to marry Masterna without her consent. 

It is worth mentioning that this book is set long before Rome would become the Empire which spread throughout the western world. It was still several small unstructured and disorganized city-states and were constantly battling other ones. Caecilia’s family lives on the outside of the central government closer to the Etruscans in nearby Veii than they do to other Roman city-states. They are constantly fighting so any form of peace is imperative. 

That is what is the center of Caecilia and Masterna’s arranged marriage. For the Roman and Etruscan city-states to form an alliance with and strengthen their bonds to maintain peace and potentially defend themselves from other larger city-states and enemies.

When Caecilia enters Veii, it’s like she is in a completely different world. Where she dressed in drab plain outfits, the Etruscans were bright colors and elaborate jewelry. Where she was raised to suppress her emotions and desires as a stoic Roman wife, the Etruscans, even the women, openly discuss their frank sexuality and have very fluid relationships. 

The most impressive discovery that Caecilia learns is that Etruscan women have authority. Caecilia seeks advice from Masterna’s mother who is very politically influential. Even Erene, a courtesan, has advice to give on how to use her sexuality as a power move. Through these women, Caecilia gains self-actualization in her life and marriage which had been lacking in her Roman upbringing.

Because of this influence, Caecilia is able to gain power and prestige in her marriage. She learns that Masterna had a wife that had died, she allows him to grieve up to a point. When the time is right, she informs him that she is in front of him and while his late wife may still have a place in Masterna’s heart, in his home and his bed Caecilia comes first. 

Caecillia also delays the conception of a child until she is certain that her place is secure in Veii and that she is accepted among the Etruscans. She is also concerned about Masterna’s past difficulties in producing children. She knows that the presence of a child, especially a son, might alter things in her husband’s favor. 

She takes medicine as contraceptives to delay parenthood as long as needed. Only when Caecilia is secure in her marriage and status,and Masterna’s virility, does the possibility of having a family come into play. 

Caecilia also brokers relationships inside Veii. She treats Erene and Cytheris like women with their own agenciesvand gains empathy with their struggles. She has an older sister-kid brother relationship with Tarchon to the point that she advises him to get out of a very unhealthy toxic relationship with Masterna’s priest brother.

Then there’s Masterna. Their relationship begins very antagonistically as she objects to being forced into marriage like a bargaining chip. He tries to dominate her with his masculinity and authority. She chips into his demeanor to discover the more vulnerable open side of him that grieves for the wife that he had while beginning to care for the wife that he is currently married to. His and Caecilia’s marriage evolves into an equal partnership and potentially a love match.

Caecilia changes in her marriage and becomes a stronger, more confident, more self-aware woman, potential leader, and proud Etruscan.

Nostalgy by Miguel Vandenburgh; The Pleasure, Peculiarity, and Puzzle of the Past

 Nostalgy by Miguel Vandenburgh; The Pleasure, Peculiarity, and Puzzle of the Past

By Julie Sara Porter 

Bookworm Reviews 

This review can also be found on Reedsy Discovery.

Spoilers: Nostalgia is a difficult psychological trap to fall into. It captures memories with a positive filter. It emphasizes good times and down plays sadness. It ignores that those good times weren't shared by everyone. It changes pop culture touchstones from irritating fads and sources of cringe to gold standards beyond criticism. 

Nostalgia forces people to idealize and live in the past and ignore the present in front of them. It creates a false past that has more to do with pop culture and filtered memories than reality. This trap can be found in Miguel Vandenburgh’s novel, Nostalgy.

Alejandro is a businessman who emigrated from his native Spain to Los Angeles and is on a fast track to professional success and personal misery. He hates the commute, hates this overwhelmingly loud American city, and while he is good at his job, he lacks the passion or interest in it. His thoughts often drift to old friends, past loves, and youthful adventures to the point that he can barely function at work or at home. His boss notices his depressed behavior and grants him a sabbatical. Alejandro takes the opportunity to fly back to Spain and visit his childhood home, family, old friends, and lost loves. Maybe he can find the boy that he used to be.

Nostalgy is not concerned with what it's about or who it's about but it is concerned with how it feels. Alejandro’s journey captures the mind and emotions with thoughtful evocative passages and situations that challenge the concepts of memory and reality.

In Los Angeles, Alejandro is in a constant state of stasis and inertia. Alejandro lives in the present but his mind is elsewhere. He has a good job, lives in a nice neighborhood, has friends and romantic relationships but it's all surface. He contributes to the bare minimum of his job, commute, and current friendships and relationships. Everyone else moves in the present, while he is mentally standing still in the past.

 Everyone around him moves at great speed, lives in bright colors, and loudly proclaims their emotions. Alejandro lives in a world of muted grays, silence, lumbering movements, detachment, and no emotional connection.

When Alejandro returns to Spain is when he starts recognizing color and movement. He sees the blue skies and sun’s reflections, the other commuters and travelers, and the intense euphoria that one gets when they are beginning a quest. In Alejandro's case, it's a quest to come face to face with his past.

When Alejandro returns to his Spanish hometown, he sees that it has changed. He sees more people, different buildings, companies that have franchises there that didn't exist before. He is like many whose minds are captured by the hometown of their youth and expected it to remain the same.

 They expect the landscape photographs in their mind to be unaltered but a real place isn't like a photograph. It can't and won't stay in one place forever. People move in, businesses create jobs, houses are built. The world cannot and will not remain stagnant no matter how much we want it to.

This also applies to people. Alejandro has a lovely reunion with a boyhood friend, Felix. The two walk around old haunts, live recklessly, play pranks and share intimate secrets about their past. It is like a grand adventure that is reborn decades after the last one they went on. The reunion gives Alejandro a brief moment of unbridled joy but it is only temporary.

For Alejandro the reunion with Felix is part of the goal, the answer to find out why he is stuck and whether he can find happiness. Felix however looks on it as a vacation or temporary reprieve. It's a stress reliever from his life as a single parent. He has fun then he returns. 

It doesn't have the same emotional impact for him because life didn't stop for him. Felix worked, got with someone, fathered children, and now has adult responsibilities. Alejandro has them too but life stopped in his youth. He can't mentally separate the boy that he used to be from the man that he is. It's a sad existence for him to always look forward and not back.

He also finds that sadness in other places and people as well. His father, once a proud strong man, is now weakened and made vulnerable by the natural process of age. He reunites with an old girlfriend who is pleased to see him but sets him straight by asking what he expected when coming. Did he really think that she would stay the same age and have the same personality forever? She also corrects him on many of the details reminding him that his memories are imperfect and were less how they actually were than how he wanted to be.

Nostalgy is similar to the Twilight Zone episode “Walking Distance.” In it, a burned out executive (Gig Young) returns to his childhood home exactly as it was. He has traveled backwards in time and sees his younger self and his parents. When his younger self, he mournfully tells the boy that there won't be any cotton candy, merry go rounds, nor band concerts and no pleasant memories in adulthood. His father realizes that he is in the presence of his son as an adult. He tells him to go back to his old home and his real time. “There is only one summer per customer,” and to let his younger self have his. The most important crucial information that he tells him is to look around when he gets home. He might find cotton candy, merry go rounds, and band concerts. He just hasn't been looking hard enough.

When people live inside their nostalgia, they only recall the days of their youth with optimism and pleasure. They deify the music, shows, books, fashion, news, and movies of their past without really living within them. Mentally and emotionally they are frozen in that space. 

Nostalgy suggests that there is nothing wrong with those memories or those items. They made us who we are and they serve as temporary time machines. However, we can become trapped in our past and close the present and future around us. That is what Alejandro shows, someone who can't move forward because he is frozen by facing backwards. 

Living only in our youth causes us to miss the beauty and wonder around us now. A beautiful sunset. A song that speaks to us. A fictional character that says what we are thinking. A job that encourages our talent. Finding the perfect partner. The birth of a child. Our forever home and sacred space. The advances that have been made allow us to learn, live, and enjoy life on a larger scale. The voices are finally heard and listened to when they used to be forced to recede somewhere in the background. Even when things are at their hardest, there is always something to learn, enjoy, take pride in, experience, and love.

You can't go home to the past again but you can experience the world around you and find your own cotton candy, merry go rounds, and band concerts. It takes some time but Alejandro finds his.

A Matter of Time (The Bridge Through Time Series Book 4) by Jennae Vale; Enchanting Romantic Fantasy Has Questions

 A Matter of Time (The Bridge Through Time Series Book 4) by Jennae Vale; Enchanting Romantic Fantasy Has Questions 

By Julie Sara Porter 

Bookworm Reviews 

Spoilers: A Matter of Time is the fourth book in Jennae Vale’s The Bridge Through Time Series so that probably explains the confusion and questions about the overall series and ongoing story arcs especially since it is the first in the series that I have read. When it settles down and focuses on the specific Romantic Fantasy, it's charming, funny, heartwarming, and enchanting.

Womanizing nobleman and apparently antagonist in previous books, Sir Richard Jeffords is sent from 16th Scotland into the future by witch Edna Campbell to learn a lesson on how to treat women. He finds himself in modern day San Francisco where he meets Angelina Lawson, a modern woman with an interest in medieval martial arts and an unhappy love life. The two become attracted to one another and become closer even though they come from different centuries. Meanwhile an antiques dealer, Malcolm Granger, is obsessed with finding a sword from Richard's time and he will do anything to get it even go backwards in time with him.

There are two distinct aspects to the book and one works better than the other. The good news is when the book acts like a Romantic Fantasy, it's predictable but fun in its own way. 

Richard and Angelina’s romance goes down smoothly because they are perfectly compatible. There are indications from other characters that Richard was a villain in previous books so he is a harder cynical character because of this and a bit uncertain when it comes to a reciprocal love.

Angelina has also had her share of heartbreak and is the typical modern day jaded female Romance protagonist. She is less certain about love than Richard is. These are the types of characters who are perfect for each other. 

They may trade witty barbs, mock their deliriously in love friends, and deny their attraction while simultaneously becoming more and more intimate. It's a fun and interesting romance between two characters who like disagreeing with each other almost as much as they like making love.

The time travel aspects are a bit different from other books in the subgenre. Richard has been to the present in a previous volume, so this second trip is nothing new. He is unfamiliar with being in San Francisco however and gets lost easily. It's less like someone in a separate time period and more like a regular person visiting a new city on vacation.

It also helps that Richard is not alone. In fact, while in modern San Francisco, he encounters Nick, a friend of Angelina’s who is also a friend of his from Scotland. Nick is a charming comic relief character who is also close to Angelina.

 The Reader braces themselves for a love triangle. Thankfully, we get a reprieve. Instead, Nick treats Richard and Angelina like his favorite siblings. It also clears the path for him to find a love interest in the next book.

Another interesting character is the creator of this time travel escapade, Edna Campbell. She is an older wise woman with the gift of foresight. She is often quick with a magic spell, an herbal remedy, and a sardonic comment for those around her.

Edna is happily married and is surrounded by friends and family so she is the opposite of the usual lonely witch found in these works. In fact, if she were ever arrested and charged with witchcraft, she would have plenty of loyal allies who would have her back.

Things get incredibly confusing in later chapters which I admit are partly because I haven't read the earlier volumes. We meet more friends of Angelina and Richard's that have traveled back and forth in time which is highly questionable. 

Are these the only time periods that allow time travel? Is there some sort of cosmic link to 21st century California and 16th century Scotland? Can characters from the past go further back or from the present go to the future? How do we account for the implausibility that all of the time travelers all knew each other before their adventures? Does all of this time tripping affect the time stream or the space time continuum? Aren't there people in either time period missing someone? Is there anyone left in modern San Francisco or Scotland who hasn't been bitten by the time travel bug?

There are also other parts that don't work so well. Malcolm is an incredibly cheesy antagonist and his subplot is written without much depth or subtly. He wants a specific sword that belongs to Richard's family and he puts his and Angelina’s lives in danger. It's a pretty transparent attempt to create more conflict that doesn't always work.

Also again this is because I didn't read the previous books. In some of the last few chapters, we are told about some of Richard's more nefarious deeds in the previous volumes. It causes one to think differently of him. 

It's not that he reformed and found love that is the problem. Many characters go through redemptive story arcs and emerge on the other side as friends of the heroes. But the way his villainy is described as almost hand waved.

A character with the history that Richard has would have more guilt in his next relationship. There should be more flashbacks and remorse connected with his past. For it to be dismissed and info dropped in the final chapters seems almost dishonest. Like Vale was trying to rewrite or gloss over the history of one of her own characters.

Still despite the flaws, this is a fine book for fans of Time Travel Romance Fantasies. It's probably much better to look at its own merits than part of a series or do what most normal people do and read the series in numerical order.