Rock Kills by Michael Di Lauro; Rocking Good Times With An Awesome Narrator
By Julie Sara Porter
Bookworm Reviews
Spoilers: Michael Di Lauro’s novel Rock Kills walks the path that many accounts of rock stars take but it does it with the perfect narrative voice that lets you enjoy the familiar ride.
That voice belongs to Steven Apollo Belmondo AKA Stabb Bell, former lead guitarist for the 1970’s rock band She Kicks. The book tells his story from folk musician to rock star with the usual beats of humble beginnings, small starts, greedy music executives, musical group of misfits, damaged love lives, meteoritic rise to success, addiction, egos, bad tempers, betrayals, break ups, and so on. We've seen it before in every biopic ever but none are told by Stabb Bell.
Stabb’s narration is what makes the book. I would genuinely love to hear the audiobook version to see how the narrator would capture his voice. His elevates many of the usual beats of a star’s rise and fall to an interesting and actually compelling level.
Stabb’s sarcastic comments about his own story are self-deprecating, acknowledging the tropes while also mocking them. Instead of a faded celebrity full of ego and delusion, he looks back with honesty. He compares She Kicks to other famous groups like The Beatles and the Rolling Stones and admits that his band was famous but “never fainting famous.” (Where fans fainted in delight during their concerts). It's less a story about being lonely at the top than it is about feeling kind of crappy in the middle.
There are times when Stabb’s burnt out narration becomes almost cluelessly adorable. For example, it takes Stabb an entire chapter to figure out an important secret about his past even though the person revealing it drops several obvious hints beforehand.
The Reader easily guesses the secret only a few lines into the beginning of the chapter and waits, with a forehead aching from the constant face palms, for the Midnight Train to Clue Town to finally catch up to the protagonist. Stabb is highly talented and a great storyteller but he's not the sharpest note on the musical scale.
Unfortunately there are also times when that naivete results in less humorous moments especially when Stabb finds out too late that he was being used as a front for others’ criminal activities. To his credit the middle aged man telling the story recognizes what an idiot the young budding star was to ignore it but he can't change the past. The only thing that he can do is talk about it.
Di Lauro's writing also gives Stabb interesting recall in describing the colorful characters that he encounters on his journey to and from stardom (not “fainting super stardom" of course). His former girlfriend Margot, the “one that got away” and who inspired his earliest hits appears and reappears in his life but she has her own agency.
While she appreciates him as a musician, Margot lets Stabb know about what she thinks of him as a person and lives her own life separate from him. In fact it's less like she is pining over him and more like he is pining over her.
The band members of She Kicks are an interesting eclectic bunch particularly Siobhan, the sharp tongued lead singer who leads the band like a cross between a larger than life prima donna and cold blooded CEO. Think of if Janis Joplin was ever crossbred with Deborah Dugan.
She also isn't afraid to maintain dominance in a largely masculine led industry including arguing with her obstreperous and verbose lead guitarist. Siobhan and Stab often engage in one on one snark battles to disguise their own anxieties and insecurities.
Another interesting member of the band is the ebullient bassist Tanya. She is usually something of a comic relief, blurting out off color jokes and asides at even the most inopportune moments. But her story ends up being one of the most heartbreaking.
Tanya joined She Kicks to pursue her passion for music and maintain a separate identity from her suffocating family only to find herself crushed by them anyway. Even after all of these years Stabb stills the vicarious anguish of his former colleague.
In his recall of his and his band mate’s experiences, Stabb reveals the great cost of pursuing artistic success: the performance highs, constant pressure, and the need to be an individual that is screaming to be heard, understood, loved, and accepted while being surrounded by a crowd.
Stabb Bell, and by extension Michael Di Lauro, turns what could be a hokey cliched melodrama into a thought provoking introspective engrossing novel about fame, love, identity, artistic pursuits, and maintaining one's own individual voice in the face of change, conformity, and control. It is truly a rocking good time.










