Showing posts with label Obsession. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Obsession. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

New Book Alert: blue:season by Chris Lombardi; Disturbing But Meaningful Look Into Mental Illness and Academic Obsession

 



New Book Alert: blue:season by Chris Lombardi; Disturbing But Meaningful Look Into Mental Illness and Academic Obsession

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews


Spoilers: Chris Lombardi's novel blue:season is a disturbing book because many academic geniuses who also have mental illnesses might understand, even relate to this book. They may recognize the point when their research becomes an obsession and takes over their life. They feel at one with their pursuit of that specific knowledge and have a hard time separating their life from their work. In this particular case, that obsession has terrifying results.


Molly O'Donnell comes from a very intellectual family. Her father was fascinated with James Joyce. So much so that he named his children after various Joycean characters: Molly, Emma, Anna, Leopold, Stephen. Unfortunately, he died of an aneurysm sending his widow to dissolve into an alcoholic daze. 

Molly, who was very close to her late father, deeply feels his loss. She decides to do her postgraduate thesis on Joyce and Finnegan's Wake. However, she becomes fascinated with the story of Lucia Joyce, James' daughter who trained as a dancer, had various unhappy relationships, suffered a mental breakdown, and spent forty years of her life in and out of mental institutions before she died in 1982. Her research into Lucia's life is so compelling that Molly begins to think of her, even seeing her. She has trouble separating herself from Lucia to the point that she ends up in a psychiatric hospital convinced that she is Joyce's daughter.


blue:season captures the voice of someone who is very brilliant, but clearly going through psychological turmoil. Lombardi handles the intelligence and fragility of such a character rather well. Molly's first person narration is full of literary references, quotes from songs and plays, and a stream of conscious thoughts where she rambles on and on, sometimes repeating herself. The writing style can be a difficult chore to read but it helps to characterize her thought process. 


Of course this style is meant to echo the work of other writers like Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath, and Joyce himself who often wrote about troubled characters and had psychological and emotional illnesses themselves. These writers and Lombardi were very interested in the human psyche and how the mind flickers about from one subject to another, how thoughts can be both vivid and confusing. 


Molly's story alternates with that of her siblings and friends that want to discover why Molly turned out the way she did. Why would a brilliant vibrant woman suddenly require hospitalization? What happened to her to cause this? The discovery is somewhat pat and easy to guess especially since the narrative drops obvious clues beforehand. It also answers some questions about why Molly was so driven by the story of James and Lucia Joyce and how they echoed into her own life and led her down this unfortunate path.


blue:season offers a perspective of the ways in which genius and madness often coincide revealing a mind that is capable of deep thoughts but is wrapped around a tormented soul.

Tuesday, March 29, 2022

New Book Alert: Double Down by CJ Axlerod; All About Aaron: The Single White Male

 



New Book Alert: Double Down by CJ Axlerod; All About Aaron: The Single White Male

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews


Spoilers: Okay judging by the subtitle of my review, the plot of CJ Axlerod's Double Down is not the most original thriller. It clearly borrows elements from the films, All About Eve and Single White Female in which a successful beautiful older woman takes an extremely ambitious and unstable woman who bears a strong resemblance to her under her wing. It isn't too long before the young upstart doesn't just want a life like her mentor, she wants to replace her mentor. 

The plot is familiar. But there is still enough suspense in Axlerod's genderbent version (casting men in the roles as the older success story and young upstart) as well as some good characterization and a few twists that make a frequent plot at least interesting.


This book's answer to Bette Davis' Margo Channing is Alex Cole, a noted action film star. Alex has been a success since his teen idol days when he appeared in the soap, Days and Nights. He has a string of successful blockbusters behind him and lives in a palatial house with a loyal staff.

Recently, Alex has been shot at by a mysterious stalker and now is afraid of appearing in public. However, he has many publicity appearances and press junkets to appear in.

Enter Aaron Peterson, assistant manager of a hotel in Naples, Florida and a YouTuber. Aaron has gained fame for his  videos where he does accurate impressions of Alex. Why he's even a dead ringer so Alex's friends suggest that he hire Aaron to impersonate the movie star at public appearances while the real deal remains hidden. Meanwhile, investigations will be made on Alex's mysterious stalker.

Aaron is eager to impersonate his acting hero and Alex sees a vulnerability in the other man that he is instantly protective of. It isn't long before Aaron's envy of Alex's life takes over and he doesn't want to just replace him at public events. He wants to replace the actor permanently.


Among the interesting approaches that Axlerod takes with the book is how Alex is written. For being a film star, he is free of ego. In fact despite the glamor job, he acts like a regular guy. He is close friends with his staff and treats them like friends and equals not underlings. He has a healthy relationship with women in which he respects them and is not only a good romantic companion but has many platonic female friends.

He knows many things about the people around him and vice versa so when Aaron at one point does something out of character for Alex while imitating him, one of his closest friends picks up on his deception right away. 


By contrast, it's Aaron who acts more like the spoiled arrogant narcissist when he imitates Alex. He treats Alex's employees like dirt, hits on female friends, and creates suspicion among Alex and his closest companions. This deliberate isolation works to gaslight Alex but also in Aaron's mind to punish him.

Aaron can't understand why someone with that much wealth doesn't use it to Lord over people. He is disappointed that Alex acts like a regular normal person. In Aaron's twisted mind, he feels that Alex doesn't deserve his wealth if he isn't going to use it. 


Other aspects to Alex's personality that Aaron exploits are his vulnerabilities. For living the life of the rich and famous, Alex has had his share of problems. His parents died when he was in his teens. His wife passed away recently and he is only just starting to get back into the dating game (though appears with beautiful starlets for publicity purposes).  In his mid-forties, Alex is starting to feel his age about appearing in the action film genre so wants to branch out into more mature fare like his latest film Hell After Dark, where he plays an anti heroic archangel. 


These issues put Alex in a vulnerable sensitive position that Aaron can easily exploit to his advantage. Aaron plays on these darker moments in Alex's past and present so he can appear like someone relatable towards him. He even shares hard luck stories about his own past so Alex can find some common ground with his new frienemy. Aaron's skilful way at manipulating Alex prove useful in his campaign to destroy and ultimately replace the actor.


There are a few plot twists towards the end in which I won't reveal but they suggest that Aaron is simply the most obvious one hiding a duplicitous nature. There are others around Alex that are manipulating him for their own gain. In the world of this actor, many are acting around him. 

The resolution calls to question many of the previous events and make the Reader wonder if Alex ever was or will be safe among the people around him again. Can he trust anyone when he finally sees them for who they really are? Aaron is the most sociopathic, but strangely enough he is honest in his sociopathy.

In an actor's life can he truly find reality and honesty? Can he find someone who isn't acting? 

Thursday, February 24, 2022

New Book Alert: Born For The Game by Mike DeLucia; Check This Book Out About The Ball Game

 


New Book Alert: Born For The Game by Mike DeLucia; Check This Book Out About The Ball Game

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews


Spoilers: Once again, we have a book that ends up mirroring real life perfectly. As I am writing my review for Mike DeLucia's Born for The Game, the Winter Olympics has ended. Every time the Olympics or any major sports event airs, we are made consciously aware of the intense scrutiny and pressure that athletes are put through. We glamorize them when they succeed and vilify them when they fail or do something outside of what we consider appropriate behavior.

During this past Olympics, much of the spotlight was put on Russian figure skater, Kamila Valieva, who tested positive for an illegal substance for heart medication. The Olympics Committee faced much criticism by allowing her to perform.

 She, the ROC, and the Olympics Committee, faced verbal attacks, criticism, and threats because of this decision. Despite the intense controversy, Valieva performed superbly during the short program. But the pressure obviously got to her and she did not do as well during the long. 

The criticism that she received, particularly from commentators Tara Lipinski and Johnny Weir, was beyond abusive and hypocritical on Lipinski and Weir's part. Lipinski was herself a teenage figure skater and should understand her situation and Weir had an accusation of domestic violence that could have ended in his dismissal from the figure skating world. Regardless of whether it was true, he should understand what negative publicity can do to a career.

 The camera following the ROC team before the medal ceremony in which not only  Valieva but her colleague, Silver medalist, Alexandra Trusova  were left in tears making what should have been a private moment public was ghoulish and voyeuristic. What is forgotten in all of this is that Kamila Valieva and her fellow skaters are not only world class athletes, but they are also young. In her case, she is fifteen years old. Teenagers are emotional, unpredictable, not always far thinking or even in charge of their own decisions, and the intense pressure would break anyone but especially one who is not old, experienced, or in many cases mature enough to handle such stressful scrutiny.


This pressure can double when an athlete is the first of their kind to enter the sport. Think about the threats and abuse that Jackie Robinson received when he became the first African American baseball player in Major League baseball or that Hank Aaron received when he dared to break Babe Ruth's home run record. All eyes are on that athlete, waiting for them to succeed and break that barrier to welcome others or waiting for them to fail as proof that their "kind" can't do the sport. 

In Born For The Game, we have a fictional situation that hopefully will one day be real: the first woman to play for Major League baseball. (Since the All American Girls Professional Baseball League during WWII, forever immortalized by the Penny Marshall directed film, A League of Their Own.)


In this eye opening look at what it takes to break such athletic barriers this woman is Ryan Stone, pitcher for the fictitious L.A. Greyhounds. She is 19 years old and is a coach and manager's dream. She can throw a knuckleball at 50, a fastball at 88, and curves, sliders, and screwballs at different release points. In contrast to the whole "pitchers make lousy batters" myth, she strikes out most of the other players during spring tryouts. As for intelligence, well she graduated from high school at age 8, was tutored by Harvard Law professors, and has an IQ of 197. She is probably the prototype of what many consider the perfect baseball player.


While her impressive career can be attributed to plenty of talent and practice, there is a darker side to Ryan's past and her ambitions to become not only a great baseball player or the first female but to become the best. She was groomed long before her birth to become the perfect baseball player. Multimillionaire Phineas Stone, former player and manager Baxter "Rollie" Rollins, and martial artist and head of the L.A. Japanese Cultural Center, Ito Hatchi conspired to create and raise the perfect player.

 They arrange her conception by bringing together two world class athletes, Dakota Swiftwater, a Hall of Fame pitcher and Valentina Fermi, an Italian gold medalist in both Summer and Winter Olympics to conceive and give birth to their future prodigy. That she turned out to be a girl instead of the hoped for boy didn't bother them. In fact they consider her debut more noteworthy for that reason.

Besides arranging Ryan's conception, she is raised by Ito, trained by Rollie, and overseen by Phineas through a combination of visual impressions, subliminal messages, drilling and training for the goal of becoming the best baseball player.


Ryan is well developed as a character. She is clearly living someone else's dream and being programmed even before birth to succeed. Her background is meant to be secret but plays a large part in her acceptance into the baseball world. While this constant pressure and programming have led her to this place, she also shows enough natural talent and study in the sport itself to allow the dream to be hers.


However, the unspoken thought and unanswered question throughout this book is what if Ryan hadn't had this background of these men creating her to be the perfect baseball player. If she had just been an average woman with an amazing gift from an impoverished background but a killer pitching arm would she even be considered for the Majors? How many women have considered a career in professional major league baseball and even told "if you were a guy, we would sign you up" but because they weren't men they have been denied or didn't even bother to try? Do women have to be super successful and have something extra  before they can break into a boy's club or can they get in through the traditional way through hard work and perseverance?

 While Phineas and Co.'s training and programming of her, particularly putting her parents together, are untoward are they really any different from the real life "Coach Dads" and "Stage Moms" who micromanage and pressure their kids to succeed, feed them drugs to enhance their performance, and even fight with judges, directors, and other personnel when they don't? 

At least Ryan actually loves baseball and wants to succeed just as much for herself and not just because she is driven to.


Some of the best moments in the book occur when Ryan breaks her programming and shows despite Phineas, Rollie, and Ito's influence, she is still a person and a young person at that. Right before she gets accepted for the Greyhounds, she mouths off to the manager showing her legalese and business savvy to get a decent contract to join the team. She has an affair with a fan and argues with her adopted fathers when they find out. She sincerely mourns the death of one guardian and feels caught in the middle of a power struggle between the remaining father figures. Then when rumors fly about her background, she is often at an emotional crossroads that impacts not only her career but her mental health and self worth. 


While fictional and possibly extreme in the attempts to create the perfect athlete, Born For The Game takes an insider look at the pressure, the highs, and lows of what it really means to be a groundbreaking athlete. As a book, it looks like it could be, yes it is a home run!





Friday, July 23, 2021

New Book Alert: Birthrights by Carly Rheilan; Intricate Thriller About Motherhood and Obsession

 


New Book Alert: Birthrights by Carly Rheilan; Intricate Thriller About Motherhood and Obsession 

By Julie Sara Porter

Bookworm Reviews


Spoilers: Birthrights by Carly Rheilan is a memorable and intricate thriller about obsessions and the lengths people will go through to have a baby.


Dr. Ana Griffin is looking forward to the upcoming birth of her little bundle of joy. She enjoys the compliments that she is getting about her pregnancy belly. She likes that she is able to continue giving lectures such as her criticism of psychiatric medicine so she could be seen as a powerhouse mama who has it all. She decorates her home with a nursery, toys, and baby decor. She wants to be a mother so badly that she is counting the days until the time. Unfortunately there is something wrong with this scenario as one of her patients, David witnesses. Ana is attacked and as her assailant draws a knife on her abdomen, the knife goes through nothing but air.

It turns out Ana isn't pregnant at all. In fact she can't have children. She has created an intricate web of lies to cover up her deception including wearing a fake pregnancy belly and hiring and practically imprisoning a Slovakian  woman, Otka, so Ana can claim and raise her baby as her own. 


Birthrights is captivating in how Ana's motivations are revealed and how she weaves her plan involving others. We peer into her lonely childhood as she protects her younger brother, Teddy from abusive and neglectful parents. This glimpse into Ana's past shows someone whose obsession came from a certain place where she was unloved and unappreciated. Even though she has achieved professional success in psychiatry, it isn't enough for her. Her maternal instincts aren't just kicking in. They are practically knocking her over.



Rheilan goes into great detail about how Ana plans to take and raise the baby for herself. She is desperate because all other avenues towards motherhood including birth, adoption, and surrogacy are closed to her. Ana uses everyone around her to achieve her goal of motherhood. She keeps Otka and her husband, Janos well paid and has them living outside of London so they don't encounter anyone that she knows. When she shares news of her "pregnancy" with colleagues, it's information about Otka's pregnancy that she has. All of the details are under a separate name so they don't trace the paper trail to her. 

Also since technically, Otka is aware that Ana is going to have the baby once she delivers and is even getting paid for it, the legal ramifications would be extremely hard to pursue or press charges. Ana is certainly guilty of faking a pregnancy, medical fraud, and entrapment but Otka is also an accessory in a foreign country in which she barely speaks the language. Certainly the money puts her in a better position than she was in before. Otka knows if she goes to the police then she will also be in trouble. Ana is a schemer that is so confident that nothing will get past her. She believes that she is several steps above everyone else.

There are many suggestions that Ana's desires for motherhood lie more towards narcissism than a genuine love for a child. She wants someone that can love her unconditionally and will never leave her.


Once Ana's plan is unraveled beginning with the stabbing, her more violent nature comes out. She uses various people including a pair of patients, one of whom is obsessed with her, an admiring colleague, her competitive supervisor, and others to cover her tracks or to maintain her deception of impending motherhood. Once her elaborate scheme begins to fall apart, her more violent tendencies are unleashed and she is willing to throw anyone under the bus, except of course for her upcoming baby. 


Birthrights is an engaging book about how one woman's obsession goes so far that she ruins many lives  including her own and ironically the baby that she longs to have.