Gutted (Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy Book 1) by Anna Madorsky; Troubling Relationship Turns Destructive and Toxic
By Julie Sara Porter
Bookworm Reviews
Spoilers: Even if the introduction of Anna Madorsky’s book, Gutted, the first book in her Gutted, Dissolved, and Then Finished Trilogy, doesn’t outright spell out what happens to the central couple the first few chapters alone carry an initial feeling of unease that this couple is not going to be a happy one. This feeling only grows long before we learn about the violent history that haunts them in the past and the impulses that still rule their lives.
Elliot, a frequent insomniac, heads for a cafe in the rain in a desperate attempt to find something to soothe her. On the way there, she meets Jason, a mesmerizing stranger who asks probing and philosophical questions and understands the dark aspects luring inside her subconscious. The two become close and more intimate while Jason hints at some disturbing impulses and mannerisms.
Finally, in a candid moment, Jason reveals his history of violence, darker urges and impulses which consume him, and that he still has those urges even now. Elliot is left with a moral quandary. Should she turn a blind eye to his behavior, help him no matter how far his urges take him, or leave him, inform the police, and regain her life?
The overall tone of this book is bleak. Both Elliot and Jason are disturbing characters caught in their own shadow natures and emotions particularly trauma, depression, anger, violence, hatred, and depersonalization.
This is a couple that is practically destined to be a killer couple long before the first victim is identified and the body is laid out. Separately, they are miserable and insulated. Together, they are destructive towards others and themselves.
Their first encounter in hindsight is a lesson in subtle manipulation, control, and dominance. Elliot’s thought process is incredibly askew because of her insomnia and her early traumatic home life which causes her to withdraw into herself. She is very susceptible to Jason’s influence which he later revealed was among the reasons that he purposely sought her out.
Jason captivates her by echoing many of her own thoughts about the world around her. He offers his own Nihilistic views which she resonates with. She sees a partner in their mutual dark views of the world around them and who turns those thoughts into a distorted logic. If they have been hurt by a cruel and unfeeling world around them, can anyone blame them for seeing nothingness everywhere they go and thinking that life is completely pointless?
If life is pointless, then there is no reason to honor laws, ethics, morals and other barriers. Jason rewords and reframes these views so Elliot thinks that she thought of them herself. She then thinks that Jason is a kindred spirit when all he is is a pathway to further isolation.
Elliot feels detached from everyone except for Jason. A chapter that illustrates this is when she and Jason have dinner with her close friends. Elliot’s friends’ marriage is happy. They are well adjusted with their house, careers, and dog. These are goals many aspire towards, but Elliot cannot help but think that it’s a phony surface.
Elliot is shut out from achieving such a life, so she doesn’t bother to hope for them. Instead of wanting what she can’t have, she finds the flaws within and magnifies them until they turn into the whole picture. Instead of trying to move beyond her status, she remains detached, depersonalized, and immobile. Miserably unhappy but unable or unwilling to act upon it until Jason enters her orbit.
While Elliot simmers in her thoughts and unhappiness, Jason is the one who brings them to the surface. He is the agent of chaos that does the things that Elliot dreams of doing but is hampered by her own inertia.
Jason reveals a dark past in which he was forced to respond to violence with violence. Instead of feeling remorse or justification, the violence became an obsession and fixation. It is an itch that he can't scratch so satisfies it by hurting others.
Jason likens his violent actions to an urge that when he sees someone that angers him, he needs to satiate that obsession with blood and murder. For someone who speaks so well about philosophy and metaphysical concepts, he cannot articulate his murderous impulses until Elliot rationalizes them.
As he reframed her dark thoughts, she reframes his random acts and urges into a means of self-protection and defense. As Elliot is controlled by Jason, Jason is controlled by these urges. Elliot’s own inert thoughts are given movement by Jason and Jason’s acts of violence are given rationale by Elliot.
The violent acts occur in the final chapters and are almost cathartic after the build up provided by these two disturbed individuals. It is bloody, brutal, and purposely grotesque. For all of the depth in characterization that is given to the two lead characters, when we see them acting out their violent fantasies their mystique and control disappear.
They no longer see each other as mutual lost souls drifting along in an uncaring world. They see partners and instigators in escalating the chaos and violence that contributed to that uncaring world.
